A Longing....

I've been looking at some artwork online on various sites...Flickr, RedBubble, etc.
Suddenly, I became overwhelmed by this desire to create a work of art. Not necessarily by using my camera.
I want to paint something. Or draw something. I want to use various mediums to create it...a collage of paint, paper, twigs. Something not normal. Nothing revolutionary, just...different. Especially for me. I can be such a "think inside the box" kind of person.

I began to miss the days when I was in art school. I realized that in the past, I wanted my artwork to be praised and admired. Especially when I was at St. Francis University because the school is known for having a great art program.

I was always jealous of great artists. Both famous artists and fellow students. I wanted someone to be jealous of my talent. It was selfish and I fear most of my endeavors to create such masterpieces was in vain.
It seems cliche to call this an epiphany...but that's just what it is.

I simply have a desire to make art for art's sake.

The problem is...I can't go buy paint. My dad has some he's going to give me, but I forgot to get it last time I was in Indiana.
I'm afraid this "itch", if you will, might disappear if I don't act soon.