I can't explain....

I feel like my life is pointless. I don't know where I belong.

I know I'll feel better in the morning.

I have to start getting more sleep.
And praying more.
And reading the Bible.

Complacency

Last night at church, Steve Summerlot spoke more on Colossians. He was teaching about when Paul was referring to being "complete in Christ" and all that means and entails. Steve talked about being "genuinely encouraging"..."connected to other believers"...and "experiencing ever-increasing understanding".

Expanding on the last point, Steve talked about being confident and assured in what you believe. Honestly, that's one of my biggest struggle...if not the biggest. I know the answers to the questions, but sometimes those answers don't seem like enough.

Yet, I find I'm most confident in what I believe when I'm going through trials. And not in a "religion is a krutch" kind of way...I really honestly fully lean on God. When life is good, I become complacent. It's not that "I don't need You"...I just don't feel God.

Thankfully, my faith is not dependent upon my feelings.

But I find that even reading the Scripture just seems dull and boring. It's not alive to me. I wish it was all the time. It certainly is and has been at times.

So...pray for me?